TODAY I PLANNED ON STUDYING MATHEMATICS ANB BIOLOGY SEEING THAT I'M WRITING THESE TWO SUBJECTS ON MONDAY AND TUESDAY.WELL, I NEVER GOT VERY FAR JUST DID A LITTLE BIT OF MATHS. I HAVE'NT BEEN PUTTING MUCH EFFORT INTO MY STUDIES LATELY WHICH REALLY SUCKS BECAUSE IN ORDER FOR ME TO GET INTO MED SCHOOL I'M GOING TO NEED TO PULL UP  MY SOCKS!!!!A LOT!!!!

LATELY I'VE BEEN FEELING A LOT BETTER ABOUT MY LIFE AND FRIENDS. I'M FINALLY MOVING ON AFTER A HECTIC 'BAD' RELATIONSHIP. AND I THINK THE CHOICES I'VE DECIDED TO MAKE ARE THE BEST FOR ME. IT WAS HARD AT FIRST AND I THINK ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME.I MEAN JUST BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO MOVE ON AND FORGET ABOUT WHATEVER WE HAD ON IT DOES'NT MEAN THAT I DON'T STILL CARE ABOUT HIM.

I GUESS PEOPLE CHANGE .OR   AT LEAST THE WAY WE SEE PEOPLE CHANGE. I'M JUST SO HAPPY THAT I'M MUCH STRONGER NOW BECAUSE OF WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH.I STILL GET THOSE MOMENTS WHEN I THINK BACK ON THE GREAT MOMENTS WE HAD BUT I KNOW THAT MY LIFE IS STILL GOING TO BE A LONG ONE AND THERE ARE MANY WONDERFUL PEOPLE THAT I AM STILL YET TO MEET.

I SOMETIMES DON'T FEEL LIKE I HAVE HAVE THE GREATEST LIFE .BUT I KNOW THAT I AM EXTREMELY BLESSED.I  HAVE A FAMILY THAT LOVES ME AND I HAVE FRIENDS WHO CARE.OR AT LEAST SOME FRIENDS THAT CARE. WELL LATELY I JUST FOUND OUT THAT I HAVE A TWO FACED FRIEND THAT GOSSIPS BUT I GUESS THAT PEOPLE ONLY TALK ABOUT PEOPLE THAT ARE WORTH TALKING ABOUT...

I AM SO FREAKED OUT(MY FRIENDS WOULD LAUGH AT MY CHOICE OF WORD ) I HAVE'NT STARTED STUDYING BIOLOGY YET AND IT'S A LOT!!!! GOING TO HAVE TO GET UP EARLY TOMORROW I GUESS.

AND TOMORROWS FATHERS DAY AND I HAVE'NT GOT ANYTHING TO GIVE MY DAD..THAT SUCKS..GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE UP FOR THAT...BIG TIME.

SO WHATS NEXT FOR ME?????WELL, I'VE DECIDED TO TAKE EACH DAY AS IT COMES . NOT GOING TO THINK TOO MUCH ABOUT MY PAST. BECAUSE I AM NOT MY PAST. I AM THE PERSON THAT I CHOOSE TO BE NOW...AND WHATEVER HAPPENED IN MY PAST IS EXACTLY THAT...MY PAST.

I REALLY HOPE THAT I MAKE GOOD CHOICES FROM NOW ON. AND I HOPE THAT MY LIFE IS FULL OF JOY.AND I HOPE THAT ALL THE PEOPLE WHO I CARE ABOUT WILL BE HAPPY TOO.I HOPE THAT THEY HAVE NO 'REGRETS' AND I HOPE THAT I DON'T TOO.

SO ANYWAYS BEFORE I START BABBLING ABOUT ALL THE NONSENSE(WHICH I HAVE ALREADY STARTED DOING) LET ME GO AND GET INTO A BATH SO THAT I CAN SLEEP AND WAKE UP EARLY TOMORROW.

MWAHUGZ...

XOXOXOXOXOXO